The Drop - Chapter Two

Who was there?

There was certainly someone out there. The kid could hear whispers, and shuffling. He could see nothing.

He had made things easy for me. No big fight. No final showdown. He hadn’t needed to be dragged here. So, we were running early. Curtain-up is at 20.00. Chris has been ready, staked, for twenty minutes. Only two more to go.

I am behind my boy, reviewing the reasons for my initial attraction. Those firm, high mounds, alabaster against the tan hue of the rest of his frame. The deep crack, unexplored when he arrived here – a total waste. The strong, but lean, soccer limbs. The thin waist. The flat tummy. The defined pecs with their so-sensitive tit nubs. The elegant Romanesque nose. His age, too, of course. I have done younger, and a little older, but 21 is nice. They’re not stupid at 21. They know there are bad people out there

I grab his right mound, and the impression of my fingers glow strawberry on the pale skin. I whisper into his left ear.

“You’ve been good, baby. Now just move onto a new place, mentally. Let your mind go, let your body go. Just focus on that, honey, and know that I’ll be with you on the journey”

I retreat a few steps. His head has dropped. The waiting is too hard.

The black curtain rises on quiet motors. Now my boy can see a little more. Tall armchairs facing the stage, largely filled with human figures of indeterminate sex. The room remains unlit but for two sets of candles on the back wall.

The spotlights, four of them, switch on simultaneously. All trained on the star of the show. Chris has become accustomed to the cold of the cell for five weeks. Now it feels very hot, and he flushes. He tests the two or three centimetres of movement the ankle cuffs allow. He is going nowhere.

The kid can’t see the tall figure approaching him from behind, but the audience can, and a peel of hearty applause rings out. They have been spoilt, again, with the choice of boy made by the correctional facility on their behalf, and Derek, the tall man, is a firm favourite for ‘the end’.   

None of the guests have met Derek. I am the middle man in this, and I don’t get my hands properly dirty. All they know of Derek is what they can see, namely a muscular giant of 6’5”, with a deep brown skin tone perhaps from Nigeria or Ghana. Big hands, big cock. They cannot see his face, sheathed as it is in a leather hood, but they notice the glint in his dark eyes as the spare beam from a spotlight hits them.

Chris knows Derek is there only after he delivers a crushing leather-gloved spank to the kids left butt mound. He leaps as high as his chains allow, steel grazing his ankles before the rebound. I believe, from the sound, he felt he had been shot. It must have felt like it, anyhow.

Derek and I work well together. He would be no good for the prep work which I delight in, whilst I, frankly, need to hand over at this stage. Our partnership shows how broad the term ‘sadist’ runs. Yes I hurt, but I am sensitive to a boy’s emotions and feelings even if, often, I simply play with them. Derek is cruder, harder and overwhelmingly shocking in every sense. He is simply dangerous. You cannot prepare a boy, mentally, for working with Derek.

Chris’s chastity device crashes to the floor in a metallic thud, and Derek throws both it and the key to the back of the stage.

The youth has been in chastity since day one, five weeks ago, barring his final tip-to-toe wash. He did not ask for it to come off at any time, and very few boys do. It is the least of their worries. But I know boys. I know there are times, alone at night on that narrow sleeping platform with the hard, thin, plastic-coated mattress, when he would have relished some relief, and would have loved to take it in hand and cum to the thought, perhaps, of love making with his beloved girlfriend.

But there is no room for ‘love’ of any kind here, and there can be no fantasies for our boys – only grim reality. He will have come to understand that.

Chris’s cock droops placid. It’s not unimpressive, but more in the girth than the 7” length.

Seeing it again now, I am pleased I left him a well-trimmed pubic bush. He looks as he should. A masculine young man in deep, forced submission.

The kid is in pain again. Derek has grabbed, and squeezed his ball sac in one hand whilst tracing the veins in his neck with the other. The kid can feel Derek’s breath on his cheek, just centimetres away.

“Oh yeah baby, oh yeah.”

Derek likes a nice neck, understandably. He breaks off and addresses the dark auditorium.

“Gentlemen…..and lady…..before we go any further, I’d like to invite you on stage. Can we say two at a time? This is your chance to look, to touch, to feel, to prod some tight boyflesh. No need to ask permission, Chris is fine with it – key kid?”

I could only watch. Come on Chris, respond kid, respond.

At that point, Chris discovered Derek is not me. Just one, well aimed scissor kick up into the groin, catching his tender balls full on. One guttural scream from the 21 year old.

“I said you okay with that, cunt!?”

“Yes SIR!”

He had never called me Sir, and Derek had not asked him to do so. But the survival instinct had kicked in, for what worth. He now knew Derek.

******* 

The laying of hands was always an interesting experience to watch. Perhaps contrary to expectations, the vast majority of guests are content simply to slide their palms over sweaty, straining boy skin. There is some delicate feeling of young muscle definition. Several run their hands through the residual pubic bush.

The reason for my thoroughness in the final wash is to enhance the quality of the laying of hands. There is no smell but sweat and fear.

There is some tweaking of titties, and some massaging of cock and balls. There is some circling of butt dimples with scrawny fingers and surprisingly youthful fingers. There is some spreading of cheeks and worship of so-tight straight boy butt hole. In truth, nothing rough. Thus, for the first time in five weeks, Chris has experienced delicate hands.

Bless him, one older guy even drew a handkerchief from his pocket and mopped Chris’s glistening brow, albeit whilst mumbling some vulgarities into his ear. I liked that.

Without exception, the guests wished to admire Chris’s smooth, strong neck. Like the rest of him, lean but with not a hint of fat. That made sense.

The solitary female pair of hands caressed the kid extra-gently. One long finger, with one long fingernail, slipped between his crack and probed his anus, exploring then penetrating the rosebud, massaging his young rectum whilst the other hand slipped over his shimmering chest, squeezing and pulling his nubs.

Jessica, our domme guest, withdrew the anal finger with an audible pop and fed it to Chris, who sucked the digit without prompting, tasting his own shit chute, which now meant tasting nothing beyond his own fear. As he did so, his cock rose to half mast, and his stimulated nipples grew erect from his chest.

It was a tender moment, but it was over before it had really begun. One large teardrop ran down Chris’s cheek. He knew it was all downhill, now.

From stage left, a double bed is wheeled onto the stage. It is a simple affair, being just a black metal frame, and a mattress covered with a white fitted sheet. Each corner of the frame has short pillars, on which eye holes suitable for cuffs are mounted.

Derek unties the youth from his ankle and wrist restraints.

“Let’s fuck, kid.”

*****

Chris is straight. Sexuality is investigated in excruciating detail in what is known as ‘the interrogation’, which takes place in the first week a boy is imprisoned here.

The interrogation is emotionally demanding, because I need to know everything. What the boy studied at school and the grades he achieved; where he now works or studies; involvement in sport; fitness regime; relationships with family and peers; whom he first fucked, when and how; all subsequent sexual encounters; whether he has strayed beyond ‘vanilla’, and if so, into what. If the boy has a girlfriend, we of course examine the relationship in great detail.

The interrogation lasts as long as I deem necessary. We continue until I consider I have full answers. I have a tall armchair, positioned in front of the boy, who will be seated on a stool, under the glare of two spotlights. I will walk around, stretch my legs occasionally. The boy will remain on the hard wooden stool until I say otherwise. Sessions can easily last five hours. Often we return for another, although the threat of that usually encourages a boy to be a little more forthcoming.

Talk of long-term girlfriends, in particular, and my relentless pumping for more information about the relationship and the sex, typically engenders an emotional response. Some boys try to hide girlfriend history from me, but they normally break if called back for a second or third session. Third sessions are less relaxed, anyway. Third time around, the boy is wired for electro, and I crank until I have answers.

Chris, of course, couldn’t hide Chantelle from me, as he had already told me she had given him the watch. So I pushed hard for every last detail of their lives together, and the kid, twice, held his head in his hands and sobbed on the rickety stool, whilst I watched him redden under the glare of the spots. And when I got bored of it, I placed a hand on his substantial thigh, and spoke to him gently.

“The sooner I know everything, the sooner you have dumped everything you’ve experienced and felt, well, the sooner we can end this for you. Shall we push on?”

*****

Chris is at the bottom corner of the bed, standing legs apart, one foot on the floor, the other up on the mattress. The position he is holding removes most of the protection his meaty butt mounds offer his anal crevice. So many straight lads have those athletic, muscular butts which are simultaneously provocative whilst seeming to shout ‘no entry’.

Here, however, there are no one way streets. Boys open up willingly, or they are taken.

I had Chris’s cherry. I gave him some pointers before we started. Push out. Chill out. Hold on tight. I even lubed, although that was more for my benefit than his. As an experience, it was little different to most straight boy fucks. That is to say, there was little reciprocation or effort on his part to turn his raw sphincter into an erotic tool. For him, it was about dealing with a largely painful new experience. The feeling of being unnaturally stretched inside, the feeling of a need to dump a large turd that was, actually, my cock. His innards gripped me vice-like, warm and unbending, desperate for it to end. As I increased the pace and depth of my penetration, his knuckles turned white as he held the bedclothes for dear life.

Emotionally, the anal rape was no easier to deal with for Chris than any other straight kid. I had him under my thumb, and he knew it. His masculinity, everything he believed about himself, was being stripped away. Part of him blamed himself for being in the wrong place at the wrong time, allowing him to be taken, to be imprisoned, to be raped, and yes, ended. I encouraged this self-guilt wherever possible. His boy pussy was being plowed, and it was his own fault.

Now Derek grips Chris hard above the left hip with one hand. In the other, he has a clump of the kids short, brown hair, pulling his head back hard. He pumps away at the protesting anus. An entirely mechanical fucking of the kid by 10 inches of raw Afro dick, and a mechanical fuck which has only two speeds, fast and relentless.

The grunting is coming from the youthful fuckee, through gritted teeth, rather than the fucker. This rape is not testing Derek physically, but Chris feels split asunder by the cruel invader. He wants to throw his head back and forth, in time with the piston in his anus, but Derek has him gripped tight. His long toes are screwed up into little balls of stress, the nails on his left foot scratching away at the wooden stage.

The guests are enjoying the spectacle. Every ending here has a fuck. It’s oddly ‘vanilla’, you might think, for an audience who pay to see a boy taken to the edge then thrown over. In my view, however, there is nothing more intimate than deep penetrative sex of a young man who struggles to cope with it. The guests feel that too, and are stimulated by what they see. There are occasional cries.

“Harder!”

“Deeper!”

Derek responds.

Changing position, he has the kid on his back, legs right back over his head and ankles tied off to the bedstead cuffs. This is a great position, I find, for the full appreciation of the boy butt, reared up in the air, the highest point of the lean frame. Also a punishing, vulnerable position for the rectum of the fuckee.

Now the audience can see Chris’s face. Really, a look of panic and horror. Mouth so wide as he pants away, trying to get his breathing under control as black rod lances creamy-white mound and the pink rosebud within. He can see his audience too, of course. Maybe he should look away, look straight into the eyes of the rapist above him, but at this stage, it hardly matters. So he looks at the small, varied group of men and a woman enjoying his debasement.

The bed frame squeaks in protest with each rhythmic thrust from Derek. It is, literally, inching across the stage, such is the violence of this assault. The top struggles to grip Chris firmly. He is dripping with sweat, and hands slip off smooth, wet, skin. 

Derek will not ejaculate. He will feed the kid his dick, when he is done, and Chris will clean away the pre-cum and understand, again, the taste of his own innards. His hole will be left raw, distended. The hole of a boy slut, not a football jock. An important step on his journey towards the approaching end.

*****

Chris is being pinned up.

Pinning does not feature in every adventure here, but the guests routinely request it, and I oblige. It’s a rather subtle activity for Derek the brute, but he adds interest by rattling through the process at some speed.

Derek has a tray, the opening contents of which number:

10x small pins

25x medium pins

15x large needles

The small pins are for the nipples. The medium for the testes. The large needles for the thighs and breast meat. 

Mentally, most kids can cope with the tit pins. To an extent, they can deal with the needles. But – and this is true without exception – I have never seen a boy accept the inevitably of the ball pins without shouting, cursing, chain rattling and a futile attempt at escapology. 

Chris is staked again, and tightly. Derek works primarily from behind the kid. Dark hands reach around his glistening torso, and slide pins through his tit nubs, five each side. There isn’t much room, for the boy’s tits have not been properly worked. They have never experienced weights, and they have never experienced electricity. They have missed the kind of BDSM basic training that, ideally, a hot kid should be introduced to by 15 or 16. So Derek rolls the nubs roughly between calloused fingers, which does induce modest nipple erection. Before the titties subside, he introduces the pins quickly. Tiny rivulets of blood flow down over Chris’s shaking pec meat.

The application of the long needles is a more time-consuming process. Suitable skin has to be located on the thighs, and on the pecs. The muscle underneath has to be massaged and prepared for the insertion. What little body fat exists on the 21 year old has to be rolled up by strong fingers, and a sharp needle rapidly inserted. Then the exercise is repeated fourteen further times. Needles dropping vertically through breast meat criss-cross those inserted obliquely. The same story on his thighs, with needles pushed up from bottom to top, and down from top to bottom.

He is being quite brave, really. He has sobbed continuously throughout this exercise. Yes, it is painful, of course, but the total lack of control is what’s freaking the kid. This now, but what next?

When Derek starts interfering with the kids nut sac, he knows ‘what next.’

“Fuck…….fuck no!”

Sure enough, we have the desperate rattling of short ankle chains, and much chafing of skin around the wrist and ankle cuffs as the straight kid struggles.

Then a surprise.

“Ben….Ben….please!”

The youth knows me as Ben. It’s not my real name, just a short forename to go by over his weeks of captivity. I am usually ‘Ben’ to the teenagers and twinks who have been resident in the dark cell. Sometimes ‘Nathan’. It hardly matters.

This hasn’t happened before. I’m not supposed to have any involvement at this stage, I just wait, literally, in the wings.

Derek, pin in hand, turns and nods at me. This is not in the rules, and I am normally a stickler for the rules, but something, somehow, has made me drop my guard. Derek retreats three paces, and I take his place.

“It’s ok, baby, I’m here.”

I reach out, and cradle his right butt mound in my palm.

“He’s gonna put those in my balls, yeah?”

“Yeah Chris, he is.”

He feels frighteningly clammy, now. Not hot, just fetid moist.

“Please, can you stop him, I don’t want that, I can’t take it!”

Salty tears are flowing freely down his cheeks, and dripping in streams onto his needled pecs.

“Baby, you can take it. You can take it because, as I’ve proved, I’m here for you. But think of this. I also want you to take it for Chantelle, yeah?  She would want you to go out putting up a fight, not wimping out. At least that’s what I think, hey?”

He became incoherent with emotion for a bit, and I was patient.

“But, how…..?”

“Chris, it’s like I told you when you came in here. You have to put yourself on a different level, mentally, yeah? Switch out the pain….”

He interrupted

“It’s bad, yeah?”

“Yeah, pretty bad, but pain is just in the mind. I was saying, you have to switch out the pain. I want you to concentrate on two things whilst you’re being pinned. Can you do that?”

“What?”

“Well, first, I’d like you to look the audience in the eye, as the pins go in, and show them how brave you are. Show them that you don’t need to cry through ball torture, and you don’t need to scream. Second, I’ve let your dick stalk go free. I want you to use that opportunity to think of Chantelle, baby. I want you to think of the good times you had, and the sex you had. I want your imagination to get really dirty. If you can show the audience how excited Chantelle makes you feel, I might ask uncle Derek to leave the last five pins.”

He looked at me with those doe eyes.

“Ten….could he leave ten?”

Cheeky fucker. Pleading, and so near the end.

“Three, Chris. I need to be fair to the audience, and you need to show them how disciplined a young boy can be. Remember, I know boys. I know you can do it!”

I moved my mouth within millimeters of his left ear.

“OK kid, lots of effort, work for that reward, and good luck!”

*****

I love the study of the musculature of a boy in pain. Of course, Chris can barely move his limbs. His long legs are spread and cuffed, his wrists hoisted and tied off way above his head. But his calf muscles are flexing. His thighs are bulging in and out. His biceps are so tense and domed. His back is trying to arch.

Despite all of this, the kid is looking through misty unfocused eyes at my audience, as suggested. Probably he’s not really seeing, but they appreciate his effort. These aren’t really a youth’s eyes any more, merely sunken, tired, scared, wet prisoners eyes.

Chris’s scrotal sac has been pierced and punctured by eighteen pins. Derek is holding his balls tight, at the base, and pulling them away from him body obscenely to aid application of the small instruments of torture.

Chris has screamed - and shouted - but mostly just screamed. He is hoarse and dribbling, his juice-maker being rapidly pricked into uselessness by Derek’s quick, uncaring hands.

And yet, despite everything, I and my guests can clearly see a little excitement in his dick tube. Oh, it’s not a full hard-on, by any stretch of the imagination, but it has grown maybe an inch in length, and is now saluting at quarter-mast, the raspberry red helmet bobbing away. I feel vindicated. I have denied the boy for five weeks, and the desperation for release has overcome the centres of pain in his tits, thighs and balls. I have given him a pep talk, because now I am his only hope, and he has listened and understood. Try and imagine how it feels, taking a boy to the edge in a NC scene, and feeling his total dependency.    

  

Now we have twenty pins.

“Please……”

Chris has been counting. I look at his wretched body, a thing of great beauty punished so mercilessly, just for being hot and in the wrong place at the wrong time. Little trails of blood cross his torso, some actively dripping, others losing impetus and emulsifying.

There is value in carrying over his sexual arousal to the end. Derek knows, and retreats for a moment.

When my big black sadist returns, he is carrying a stool. The stool. The rest of the stage has been cleared.

I feel an urge to return to my staked boy.

“Baby, I think you know, it’s time to finish this.”

*****

To be continued

The Drop - Chapter One

Was this all becoming a little, well, mechanical?

That’s a question I have asked myself on a number of occasions recently, for when a performance becomes overly rehearsed, and a sense of innovation and ‘ad lib’ is lost, the execution can disappoint, if you’ll pardon the pun.

I think the answer is that I retain a strong calling for this. My lust – and it is lust - to see young men handled in this stark fashion, is undiminished. I am careful to restrict myself to four of five shows per year. Any more, and it would indeed become a production line.

The passageway floor is bare concrete. My boots are heavy leather. The sound of my purposeful strides ricochets off the bare walls. The occupant of cell number one will have heard my approach well before I arrive at the door of his place of captivity, and fiddle for the key. All quite deliberate. It really is about the suspense, here. I check the spy hole before opening the metal door. The boy is looking out of the cell window.

I say window. It’s not much more than a slit of toughened glass, one and a half feet wide by eight inches deep, located high on the back wall of the cell, and deep into the thick stone brickwork. It gives limited natural light, but for the purposes of viewing, is useless for most boys. Chris is 6’1” however, and by standing on tiptoe on his bed platform, and craning his neck, he will be able to see something. Probably little more than sky.

Interesting, at this stage, that he’s still bothered about ‘outside’. He can’t be totally resigned to his fate. He may still resist. Observing boys, understanding boys, is pretty crucial in this game.

“I need your clothes now, lad.”

He turns around, having hitherto ignored my presence in the cell. He remains stood on the bed platform, giving him a good 18 inches height advantage over me.

His deep brown eyes are saying a lot. Not actually resistance, I think, but not resignation either. Fear, certainly. That and a belief there must, surely, be a way out for him. A reprieve from this insanity.

“Chris, I need your clothes now. I need you to strip for me.”

I have time, and have patience. At this stage, I always allow a buffer to avoid being rushed. As a last resort, I could encourage him with the cattle prod, and he knows it, but best for all, surely, if that stays by my side in its holster.

He steps off the bed, and broad height parity is restored. Reassuring.

“Your clothes?”

They aren’t much, of course. The white cotton T-shirt is a little stylised. The sleeves are extra short, such that they stop barely two inches over the shoulder. The neck describes a deep ‘V’ extending to the cleft in the kids pectorals. The garment is tight and thin. His tit nubs push the fabric provocatively.

The shorts are of the same material, and only a little thicker. I have always believed shorts should do what they say on the pack, so they are, indeed, short. The bottom hem broadly marks the transition from butt mound to upper thigh.

Both garments have a small, simple transfer in black. ‘Correctional facility property’. They stay with me.

I designed the uniform, and I designed it around my love of boy skin, boy muscle. I would not have tolerated a T-shirt that did not afford a bicep view. At the same time, although I contemplated a 100% nakedness policy, I know how clothes give comfort to a boy in despair, and I am prepared to give that comfort. When men and women refer to the depths of my sadism, they should not overlook this.

As he slips the T-shirt over his neck, I catch a nice pit glimpse. I am glad I let him retain nominal pit fuzz. It really isn’t overdone, and it sets his upper body off nicely. His boy titties erect a little as they are exposed to the cold, dank air. Actually, it may be more than that. Chris has fear-induced tittie erection, which I had observed at a much earlier stage in his captivity.

“Here.”

I beckon for the T-shirt. It won’t be washed and re-used, as it has value. Chris has been in this one for three days, waiting, worrying, sweating. It is a little damp, and it smells distinctly of him. As intended.

He looked at me, silently. The unasked question, with the answer he already knew, was left for me to resolve.

“The shorts too please, Chris.”

That’s it. No drama needed. No punishment. And the boys call me ‘unfair’.

He edged the material carefully over his chastity at the front, and then down his meaty butt mounds to the rear. It tumbled down long, lean, smooth, tanned thighs and to the floor, whereupon the youth stepped out of the last piece of clothing he would wear.

“Pick them up.”

The kid bent down, fished up the skimpy shorts and without moving from the spot, held them out for me to retrieve. He really doesn’t want to be near me.

These were fresh yesterday, but, frankly, seem ranker. At the front, they are yellowed with strong-smelling fear piss. Entirely expected. These, likewise, have value.

“Now the watch.”

He had asked to keep it, so he could better keep track of passing hours and days in the cell, where otherwise existence was pretty timeless. Well, that’s what he said originally. Then, whilst we were talking in the gym a few days later – there is always a degree of interaction between boys and I, the extent of which depends largely on their desire to unburden themselves – he let slip the watch was a birthday present from his girlfriend. I had already guessed as much. In the absence of photos, this was the nearest thing to an item of sentimental value.

It was out of course for me to let a boy retain an item of jewellery, principally for fear it could be used either as a weapon, or in a suicide bid. But I’ll repeat myself – this process is all about understanding and knowing boys, and I judged I could safely leave Chris with the chunky silver-strapped watch.

Of course, however, it was a temporary reprieve. Now it must go, both physically and, with it, the emotional connection. This interested me.

“Do we have to?” In the circumstances, his tone was well controlled.

“Yes, we have to. All part of the preparation, I’m afraid.”

“But what difference does it make, now?”

I was surprised, actually, that he wanted to stand and argue with me over a chattel. As he himself said, what the hell difference did it make now? So, I will admit, I was fairly blunt.

“Because, Chris, people are paying good money to see total, complete, bare-assed nudity from you, and that is what I will fucking give them.”

Predictably, he welled up. Chris wasn’t the worst gusher I’d processed – not by a long way – but he was a perfectly emotional youth, and nothing wrong with that.

“Come on, let’s not make it hard. Hey?”

Good cop and bad cop all in one, me.

Hands shaking, he undid the metal clasp, and pulled the watch over one long, lean hand with the other. He offered it to me, and I accepted. I pointed to the ring of slightly paler skin on his left forearm.

“Look, a watch line.”

He was past caring.

One of my guests once asked me whether I cared about the boys I processed here, and the answer was an unequivocal yes. I am with them for, typically, five weeks before the end. There is a bond. Most of them need to talk, to try and understand, and I am happy to be part of that. Even the solid, near-silent ones capture my heart with their deep masculinity and courage.

Sometimes, the harder the initial ‘breaking down’ process, the deeper the ultimate bond becomes. I think of that as Chris, at my instruction, raises the bed platform to the wall and secures it with the chains designed for that purpose. As he bends fore and aft, lifting the wooden slatted platform, his butt cheeks push back towards me. My audience will not be able to see the faded-to-near-extinction welt marks on those creamy mounds, but I can still trace them, and Chris remembers the strap, remembers the cane, remembers the whip burning his bare flesh as I tamed the 21 year-old on his first few days here. I was rough with him, even by my standards. He would not have understood my discourse on the cathartic nature of punishment and discipline, so I spared him, but he certainly understood me better once welted-up, and I him.

******

The cell is now empty. The bed platform is locked up. The toilet, in the other corner, is locked down. Out of use and out of bounds for the tall, smooth kid.

I let him chose a meal, two days ago. It was his last meal, although there was no point in raising tension by labouring the point with him. He chose chicken and chips. I tried to imagine keeping chicken and chips down with the stress Chris was living under and, frankly, couldn’t begin to imagine. But it was his choice. He started enthusiastically (I had not given him breakfast that morning), but was soon playing with the food, pushing it with the plastic knife from one edge of the paper plate to the other. He grazed on the chips by hand. After 90 minutes, I removed the left-overs. And that was it. In case my partner in this, or our solitary guard, should visit the cell and forget the timetable, I placed a precautionary warning sign on the cell door. ‘Strictly no solids’.

The process of digestion took its course, and yesterday, Chris came with me to the medical suite, was strapped to a gynaecological chair, and we spent a morning in each others company, undertaking his evacuation.

This is what I describe as a full evacuation. By which I mean, bag after bag after bag of (usually) lukewarm water, pumped deep into the youths lower intestine. Big bags, the contents of which make his belly swell and the thin, stretched skin become translucent with sweat. The young man holds the water for me.

Ask yourself this. What is worse for a boy – retaining a big bag, anus plugged, abdomen distended, perspiring like crazy, unable to move in your chair due to the tight bondage, legs strapped high in front of you. Or the alternative – taking bags in quick succession, a constant filling, hurting, explosive evacuation, filling, hurting etc. I’m not sure, because it’s not something I’ve ever experienced. I can only say, I like to see a boy experience both, and Chris did over what must, for him, have seemed an endless morning.

This, I guess, is why they say I’m cruel to my teenagers and young men. Sometimes, I deliver cold water enemas too, and that, I agree, is strictly unnecessary.

The tall, tanned youth, writhed in his bonds as he was flooded with cold. Teeth gritted. Toes curling, finger nails digging into the plasticised wrist-rests of the chair, head shaking as far as it could within the limits of his neck restraint.

I liked to watch him when the bag was fully emptied deep into his man passages. Watch his eyes follow me around the room, watch him waiting for signs that I was about to turn on the tap to allow his evacuation, watch his cheeks puff read. Watch his suffering. See him despair until, without warning, I would roughly release the valve and a high-pressure torrent of intestinal-water would clatter into the metal pan below.

He was clean, really, after four large enemas. The stinking, shitty water started to run clear. Chicken and chips all gone. He knew it, I knew it. But he took ten for me. A nice round number.

On the eighth, I spoke to him. His breathing was a little ragged. This was hard work for a kid.

“I’m going to fill you, but not plug you, baby. If you can hold it in, walk over to the toilet and dump the water in there without spilling a single drop, we’ll call it a day, yeah?”

I love motivating boys with talk of ‘the end’ to whatever they are suffering, and after three and a half hours, this kid wanted nothing more than for this to be over. Yes, he must have wanted to tell me to fuck off, but he had an end in sight and, what boys love best, a target.

He didn’t manage my challenge first time. I gave him a very full bag, then withdrew the hose and wiped dry his anus and groin. I let him contemplate for ten minutes. He could see the toilet in a side room from where he half-lay, half-sat. Not too far, he thought.

“Okay Chris, when you’re ready, you may purge yourself in the toilet.”

The boy hardly made it out of the chair. He simply hadn’t prepared himself for the pressure he would need to apply to keep his anal gates tightly closed for the short dash. As he got up, the water sloshed around his tender insides like an unstable ship in a storm.

His feet touched the floor, he bent double with the cramp and made to run, but got just two feet before flooding the ceramic tiles with the full load of anal water. Into which he collapsed into a foetal coil and sobbed loudly.

I said nothing, but merely placed the mop, bucket and floor cloth beside him, and let him recover composure. I don’t believe in rushing a boy when he has totally lost it.

Twenty minutes later I re-commenced the long refill. Maybe a few words of wisdom were required?

“Clamp the anus tight. No sudden movements. Focus. Yeah? It’s very important that a boy focuses, but too many are bad at that. I want you to succeed, Chris. So focus.”

He hadn’t asked for help, but nodded anyway. Maybe it was a help. It was the growing bond between us.

The second attempt was so much better. I thought he may have cracked it. His movements were slower, more deliberate and, yes, more focussed on the toilet bowl just a few metres away. The effort, the pain, saw him shimmering with sweat from his calves to his forehead.

But as he crawled towards the toilet and began lifting himself delicately up, I saw a rivulet of water running down his left thigh. It wasn’t sweat – the track it made was much thicker. The boy voided himself in the pan, all the while looking at me, waiting for me, maybe, to lift this particular cloud.

“You felt the leak, didn’t you?”

He had. He didn’t bother to lie. He knew I saw everything. The athletic 21 year-old sat naked, shitting a torrent of intestinal water, head buried in hands.

On the third occasion, Chris performed. It can be done. Giving up and failing – that’s unfair.

After his successful internal cleansing, Chris took a shower, which was directed throughout by me. Boys here are permitted non-scented soap only, but it does work up into a nice lather. Even then, there are places even the best groomed straight lads tend to miss or avoid through, straight-lad laziness. Between the toes. Behind the ears. Behind the balls. The cock head – inside and out. The anal ring. Chris did all of these areas twice, soaping, probing, rinsing, than starting again. He thought one finger up his anus would be sufficient to get it really clean. I suggested three. We agreed to go with my suggestion.

At this stage, towels are banned for boys, because the of the cotton flecks they tend to leave behind. Chris drip-dried for twenty minutes standing legs apart, arms stretched above him and apart, in the style of an X, on the cold floor of the medical suite.

I had removed his chastity device to allow a thorough shower. He had not abused this privilege, but no chances were to be taken, and I placed his flaccid uncut boy-meat back inside ‘the brig’, the stainless steel cock cage which imprisoned the sexuality of my imprisoned boy.

He really did look ready, now. We had spent some time working on his body hair. Chris was relatively smooth to start with, so the task was manageable. When we needed to make progress, I waxed, but generally he spent two or three hours a day with me, or my partner – who I must say has a particular expertise in this field – undergoing electrolysis. If I felt there was a point to be made, or a lesson to be learned, he returned in the afternoon or evening for a second session. I prefer the look of electrical epilation on the legs, so we concentrated our work here and, of course, within his ass crack and on his balls, where our work was especially painstaking. What can I say? There were lots of tears.

My 21 year old was left with three flashes of dark brown hair to match that on his head – two in his pits, and a token trimmed fuzz above his cock. Many will consider only total epilation acceptable for a boy facing Chris’s fate. I’m afraid I’m not with them. If a boy is prepared to work with me, to cease fighting me, I will leave him with a small reminder of his masculinity.

*****

“Look at me, Chris.”

The youth fixed my stare. His eyes looked deeper now than upon his arrival, a few short weeks ago. Still a rich, hazel brown, but sunken and tired.

“We’re going to take a short walk, now. I would rather we just did this sensibly. But I will give you a real choice. If you feel angry, if you think you might lose it, if you’re worried about keeping it together, I can chain you. If you can’t lash out, you won’t hurt me, and if you can’t hurt me, you won’t need to be hurt yourself.”

He seemed to be genuinely mulling it over.

“Err, could I ask something?”

“Anything, baby.”

“Could I go for a piss, before we…..you know? Because the toilet has been locked.”

No shit, Sherlock. The toilet has been locked because I locked it, I thought. 

“Sorry, kid, not now. Just manage it, hey?”

The boy may have been off solids for 48 hours, but I had given him plenty to drink. Entirely deliberately.

“Err…..we don’t have to do this, you know? Whatever you want, I’ll do it. Please…..not this!”

I placed a finger over his lips, which were only averagely full, but quite wide. He looked hot when he smiled, although he hadn’t done that here. His brow furrowed into a deep frown.

“Make it easy, Chris. Make it easy.”

And to be fair, the pleading went no further.

“But you’ve not answered my question, about the chains, Chris.”

Oddly, he still seemed unsure.

“Ankle to ankle. Wrist to wrist behind the back. If that makes any difference.”

“Yeah….I guess…..I would rather be chained.”

“Okay kid, I understand.”

So, Chris became the first (and only, to date) lad who requested chains for the walk to the unnamed room where he had an appointment. Not the first, I might add, who had ultimately needed bondage, but the first to request it. I wondered whether pride was a factor, whether he wanted everyone to know this final walk was not taken voluntarily. If so, he was brave to be thinking about statement-making at this juncture.

As I retrieved the chains from outside the cell where I had left them, just in case, the youth faced me, spread his legs a little, placed his hands behind his back and lifted his chin, as though to say ‘go on, do it’. I think I was right. One final statement.

The walk was a long one, from one side of the building to the other. Along corridors, up stairs, down stairs. The ankle chains did not restrict Chris’s movement to a great extent, but without use of his arms, for balance, he took the stairs gingerly. I didn’t rush him. We were early.

It was a walk taken in total silence, which was always the way unless the boy had something to say. Just my boots, and his chains on the concrete.

I placed a hand on Chris’s shoulder to hold him back. We were there. I doubt he had noticed the nondescript door before. Today, a notice had appeared.

‘WARNING – boys MUST be naked beyond this point. Strictly no clothing on boys in this room’.

We had already covered this requirement in the cell, of course. The guests liked these little touches.

“Chris, look at me, and focus.”

Now he really was trembling, and his eyes showed little but fright.

“When we get in there, it will be dark, so I will take your shoulder and lead you. Just concentrate on following me, and minding your step. Switch off anything else you hear or see. Can you do that for me, Chris?”

He nodded.

In we went, the journey so many boys have taken with me. Pitch black. Up the short flight of stairs, one by one, ankle chain rattling. Along a flat stage, which Chris could recognise from the little splinters as being wooden. We stopped.

“I’m going to take your ankle chain off now, Chris, but want you to spread your legs, and spread them quite widely.”

No response was needed. Passively, the kid let me replace the chain with simple ankle cuffs attached to bolts in the floor, about four feet apart. Almost no movement was possible.

I turned my attention to his wrists, which were moved from being bound behind his back, to cuffed over his head from chains descending, unseen from the ceiling.

This, essentially, completed my work with Chris. Others would soon take over. For the moment, however, the boy stood, spread and tied, in the darkness. Waiting.

 *******

To be continued